Recovery is life

As requested on instagram I thought this topic was highly important and I should talk about it. weight gain is going to happen, the sooner you accept that the better. (that sounds really harsh but it is the reality of the situation) p.s i totally just burst a blister on my thumb that i got whilst sharpening pencils, the pain! anyway, your body. it simply can not function at a low weight, your mind cant work, you are freezing 24/7, your legs struggle to walk up a flight of stairs, your hair falls out and your skin turns grey and lifeless! Thats your bodies way of telling you how unhappy it is. why should we fear gaining weight? we arent even gaining, we are just getting back what we lost! we have been a healthy weight before so why are we so scared to reach it again? i struggled alot with accepting weight gain, but the more i focused my mind on other things and actually started enjoying what i was eating and what i was doing with my life the less i thought about it! i got mys

okay so before my whole eating disorder began i was diagnosed with depression. i was stuck in this dark place mentally and nothing could bring me out of it. i lost my appetite completely and all i used to do was just lie in bed, i even missed college for weeks because i couldnt get out of bed. but its true when people say your intake is affected by your mood. its different for everyone, like when im in a fabulous mood and feeling really good i tend to eat alot more than usual and it doesnt bother me in the slightest. but when im in a really down mood i really struggle to eat. i loose my appetite and i overthink everything. its awful. but like i said, its different for everyone. but food really does affect your mood. did you ever notice when you were in the depths of your illness that you were the most annoyed, lifeless shell of a human? thats because you had no fuel to contribute to your mood. food gives you energy, the energy to contribute to a conversation, or to make you l