Recovery is life

CHRISTMAS TIME, MISTLETOE AND WINEEEE (I don't like wine so) MISLETOEE AND VODKAAAAAA. ANYHOO it's 14 days until christmas.... That's like 13 sleep, oh my god I'm excited. So yea, I know plenty of you are sat there worrying about Christmas, chocolates, dinner, cake, festivities! Everything. I know I used to worry about it. And it did take over my Christmas, I used to sit there, staring into nothing, whilst in my head there was uproar about the day, planning and planning and counting what I'm going to eat. It was horrible, I hated it, I just wanted it to get out of my head. What happened to waiting for Santa, and opening my advent calander all at once. Why was I now worried about one of the most amazing times of the year? You have to remember that this isn't you, it's not your mind telling you to do these things! You want to enjoy yourself, you want to be free! There's just something inside your head stopping you. Free yourself. Let yourself b

hello lovelies, okay so eating disorders usually involve alot of anxiety, around food, public, sociailising and relationships, and sometimes overcoming the anxiety is the hard part, for me it was anyway. I was diagnosed with depression before my eating disorder, and once i was diagnosed with anorexia they also treated me for depression and anxiety. its really hard, and its hard because youre not only isolating yourself but youre also wanting to get involved and push yourself but you cant do that because you dont have the motivation to do anything. i was always told that i would never fully recover from my eating disorder (which is a really stupid thing to tell people because everyone needs hope and re-assurance) but i knew that it was possible and i kept myself going even though i never knew if i could wake up one day without the ache in my stomach and the thoughts in my mind. (id like to tell you all that it is completely possible and to not listen to anyone who tells you differe