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Loosing weight?

The heading looks misleading but it's a topic I've been thinking about a lot, let me explain.
I've been physically and mentally recovered now for nearly 2 years and I've always either put on weight or stayed the same but now my body is settling into it normal life and my daily eating habits are changing with work and day trips. I've naturally lost weight, not drastic, it's literally just my body settling down and getting comfy, I think.

But from past experiences it's so hard to deal with, not for me but for my family. My mum and dad become worried and are constantly egging me on to eat more and more, when I'm eating no less than I was before, it's just how my body has fluctuated.
It's difficult to understand the minds of others, and rightfully they can be worried but they definitely don't need to. It's just trying to establish that trust with your family for them to not be worried, but they have single handingly seen me lie to their face about food in the past.
I've changed now and I would never do that again and I know in myself I would never go back to that dark place I was once in.
Our bodies are like everyone else's, they change, boobs grow, thighs grow, your face gets slimmer or your stomach gets muscular and toned. Our bodies adapt to our lives and our daily activities. But yes it's hard to explain that to parents who have had a screaming child on their hands who won't eat a meal.
This will happen to lots of you and most probably all of you, the important part is not to get dragged down with it, don't make it a challenge and don't revert back into the rules and regulations you've spent so long breaking out of. You are strong and these challenges the world throws at you, you have to and will overcome them.

Okay so a lil message aswell.
Vegetarian.
I didn't eat meat for about 2-3 months, I'm strongly passionate about the welfar of animals and believe in a better life and future for all living beings. But, I don't eat nuts, cheese or milks or cheese or cheese or cheese (I hate cheese). So I found it hard finding substances for my protein. I don't like quorn, I'm very fussy and always find things to dislike (I know I hate it too) and I slowly found my body had no energy, I lost colour from my skin and I felt drained and was constantly asleep. I'd heard so much about the benefits of a vegetarian diet, I've tried so many recipes (deliciously Ella was helpful) but I either didn't like the texture or the taste, I'm a bland kinda gal.
So after a while of me fighting with myself to stay awake, I've had to revert back to eating chicken and fish. Mind I don't eat a lot of it, I try to mix up my diet and stay away from meat, but for me, it was unhelpful for me and I found I was trying to control my diet and I didnt like the aspect of having to be careful with what I put into my body.
I'm still a strong believer in a happy life for everyone and everything but for me at this moment in my life, I'm still on the search for my vegetarian foods, I've found a few along the way but my body isn't ready yet, so I'm going to listen to it and give it everything it deserves.
This always makes me worry about vegan diets and vegetarians whilst STILL underweight. I'm healthy and I struggled with the control over my food, it wasn't healthy for me mentally or physically and I hate the thought of mentally struggling and underweight people with thoughts around food constantly invading their minds, how do they cope throughout this difficult period in their lives.
So please if you're vegetarian or thinking about making that transition, look after yourself and your mind.




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